Different Opinions

Hello All, 
Lots of things have been going on these past few weeks but one thing that has come up over and over again is the fact that I am not in school this semester. Ha, man I don't even know if I am going to go back. At this rate and the amount of money I have saved I might as well wait till next semester (or never go back?) This has been on my mind a lot these past few days... I have also been thinking about how people react when I tell them that I might not go back. Even though they respond politely with some quip or other I can see it in their eyes "What is she THINKING!?" ( I think that myself sometimes!) But I know school isn't for me right now. I have already done too much! I know that there is NO WAY I could of accomplished all this if I wasn't off, like I said I just don't really see the value of going right now. I guess the reason that I am writing about this is well, I just don't like being judged. Plain and simple, I know of one person in particular whom I know will not agree with me and my decision. WELL, this is where the rubber meets the road buddy! I remember someone saying that I would have their support. Even my mom has made comments like "Well since you dropped out of college, insurance is going to drop you... etc." I know she doesn't mean to be rough or anything but it still makes me feel like a burden. When I was in college I felt even MORE so, my dad knew I couldn't pay all the bill's myself so he helped out. (My daddy worked his butt off to get me to go the first semester.) It's not that I am not grateful, I just can't find a reason (that satisfies me) to go. And I feel I have "Half As 'ed "enough. I know people will call me lazy or pathetic or whatever but I don't want to waste my life chasing some stupid degree and paying through the nose to get a piece of paper that basically says "Good Job. You now know how to take directions and follow them really well!".  Sigh, I just need to figure what that something is. Right now I would just be happy to learn how to quilt, sew, and spin yarn well. I guess I fail at being a Feminist! HAHAHA! :D

More to follow.

Growing up.

 I have been looking at my old post and it's been interesting to see the ways I have been growing and maturing (Shocking I KNOW!) well I am still quite silly and all that but I think I will keep learning until the day I die. Anyone who thinks the have "arrived" have a ways to go. I try to understand what I want to gain from my day to day experience, and remembering how what I do every day will affect others whether it be good or bad. (thanks Karen for showing us that!)  :D It is great when believers can come together and pursue the same goal, I for one am encouraged and thankful that I have like minded sisters and brothers that help me stay "on track" I really don't know where I would be without them! So many decisions that I have made and continue to make is because they are there to support and understand what I am going through. 

 This past week end has been so edifying! I have learned so much. First,we went to a Purity Conference held by Sarah Mally. We got there a few hours before it was supposed to start. My sisters were not really thrilled at the prospect of going *skirts (long ones at that), purity speeches, and working on home-work that was left over from the past week didn't seem like a awesome way to spend the weekend* :P But the said aftrewards they were happy they came! Still, I think visits with the local saints helped break up the "monotony". It was great getting to spend time and talk about what has been going on in one another's lives since we last spent time together and it struck me how easy it was to just kinnda "pick up where we left off" and how truly comfotable it was sitting around and talking about our childhood memories and mishaps! :P  I guess you can say I am going through "fellowship withdrawals" *Sigh* I just wish that we would all live closer and be able to see one another more often.