Life and how to live it.

So I can't sit here and pretend I have all the answers. I don't. Heck, I am not even sure what to do with my life! I have be exploring this and I have come to Landscape Architect or get my PH.D  in Fiber Arts so I can be a professor. I am not sure yet. I am scared of the future and what it might hold. I know my most important goal in life is to have a Family and to raise godly generations in this wacked out world. So far that plan is kauputs. Don't have a boyfriend or anything. I mean for pete's sake I haven't even been on a date much less kissed ect.! (This is a good thing)   I know.... just wait, your time will come blah blah blah.... I just wish I had someone to BE there! And to love me even if I am running around Target laughing like a maniac cuz I just burped and it was quiet but it smelled and some poor (kinnda cute) guy walked into it and his face scrrunched up with disgust! HA it was HALARIOUS! (don't worry I was embarrassed.) Or a girl that LOVES The Black Keys AND Josh Goban at the same time! And procrastinates like nobodys business and I forg-e-t-s ever y thing!  AND LOVES ROCK MUSIC! ( and is rAnDoM) See? what kind of guy would want that???? I am too crazy even for myself sometimes.... And somehow I have to plan my life out.  Can you see why I have trouble sleeping at night?

New blog.

Eh my last blog was infiltrated by the enemy! So I had to make a new one.

Ok so he is not evil, but I just feel uncomfortable that he read that. I was FURIOUS in fact. Why? I put this up so people can read it. I just didn't want him to know that side of me, it felt wrong.

He wanted to talk about it, I told him "No."

I don't want you to know, I don't want to discuss, I don't want to see what your view is on it. I don't want you poking around my head and analyzing my thoughts. It's too close... it's my heart. Don't besmirch it, You are too rough. I know you don't want to be, but you are.... You are like an alien trying to understand my ways, my thought process, don't try to get into my head I don't want you in there. Just know the "surface" me. That is as far as you will get I am afraid. Why am I like this towards you? Why do annoy me so much? WHY?