Once more

I don't know why but the song Secrets by One Republic in stuck in my head. And it feels like my life right now... Geez that is SO Cliche!( I think I just threw-up my self respect) Well I guess I wouldn't be a good little college student if I didn't live some kind of stupid pattern out. BEGH! I am sick of this! I am apathetic towards my own life and that is NO way to live. I need to find something to pursue and not get bogged down in this mire of languid nothingness. It has been this way for far too long I keep telling myself to get over this. I know what I have to live for and what I should be doing but still gets hard sometimes. If you actually care then you set yourself up to be knocked down and squished into this mold that the Man wants... I will fight against that no matter what. (OH MYLANTA I  guess I do care I just act like I don't.)  This fight is just draining. I guess in reality I am just scared, scared of who I am/was and what I could become. But then again aren't we all?